These three verbs are a huge part of my life right now, as this week is a enormous transition from being a full time college student and being constantly on the run from one activity to the next, to now, having absolutely nothing pending or needing to be accomplished. I have realized over this past week that I am not good at motivating myself to do any old thing when my whole life is not scheduled out. I find myself thinking of so many things I could be doing and that I need to do by the end of summer but, I just cannot bring myself to do any of them.
I am waiting for the time when I am busy to actually accomplish something? This should be the opposite. I don't know what I am thinking. I am waiting for that one text, that one call. I am stuck in this time of nothingness. I am waiting for July 27. My summer is on hold until that date. I am waiting for work to officially start.
I am hoping to read a gazillion good books... yet have not bought any. I am hoping to hang out with young life girls... yet I have not made that text. I am hoping to discover just who I want to be this summer... yet I haven't moved past my current state of mind. I am hoping to have the best summer... yet all I have done is catch up on sleep and TV shows.
I want this to be different. If this summer is going to be different I need to make a move, I need to find motivation and inspiration somewhere. I want my heart to find something that I truly love and can pour into. I want to find the perfect place to volunteer and to give back to this amazing world and city I live in.
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