These past 3ish weeks since school has ended have been a whirlwind, full of busy days as well as lazy days full of nothing more than coffee and a great book. Both these types of days are equally lovely, allowing me to have balance in my life. Yet through this balance in the past three weeks much has occurred.
First of all, two of my greatest friends have left the state, off to discover themselves and to grow as a Christ-follower. Without them, a necessity to fill my time has arose.
In these times of loneliness are when I feel the most vulnerable and I feel far away from the One who loves me and is with me constantly. In this loneliness I searched for someone to fill that void while I know in the back of my head and in my heart there is only ONE who can ever fill that place. Yet, I find it so easy to push Him away or to ignore where He is sending me.
On the other hand, this extra time on my hand has allowed me to reconnect with some amazing women whom I have missed dearly in my life. With an amazing summer bucket list laid out I am looking forward to continuing to build amazing friendships with these amazing women. I am truly blessed that I have not been given up on and still have a piece of their hearts.
Finally, I am beginning to feel God's pull and tug on my life once more. There was a period during these last few weeks in which I could not feel His hand working in my life. I felt abandoned and lost. I realize now that of course He had never left me; I, in fact, was the one who was leaving Him. Yes I was still reading the word and learning about Him but, I was not actively searching Him. I forgot to take action once again and was, instead, sitting and waiting for Him to take charge and fix my life.
Now, it is finally getting better, I am realizing how and when I am supposed to take action and actively seek out His voice in everything and anything I do. I just pray that I do not forget this as my days become filled with work. I pray that I do not forget that even the little actions to find You matter and that staying in constant communication with You will allow me to fill Your presence in my life.
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