tongue tied

"I'm finding myself at a loss for words and the funny thing is, it's okay.  The last thing I need is to be heard, but to hear what You would say.  Word of God speak.  Would You pour down like rain, washing my eyes to see Your majesty, to be still and know that Your in this place.  Please let me stay and rest, in Your holiness.  Word of God speak."-Mercyme Word of God Speak


This is exactly how my morning is going, I feel like my mind will not stop, will not pause, and thus causing my time spent with God to change focus.  Instead of being enveloped in his PEACE and LOVE, I am trying to wrap myself up in my own blanket of love which, let me tell you, is not as warm.  I am at a loss for words even at this moment, trying to write this.  I find myself getting angry at myself and wanting to cry out in frustration yet, I know that somehow His message is getting through to me even if it is not through the normal channels.

This morning His one message came to me through the song Word of God Speak by Mercyme (which I quoted above).  My lack of words is OKAY, I am not the one who needs to be heard but, He does.  God reminded me this morning to always be listening even if I feel like there is no possible way to hear Him.  His word and love constantly is with me following me throughout my motions waiting in the background for an opening in my strain of conscious thought.  I feel like God is trying to teach me a lesson this morning.

I have been Martha this week, always running from event to event trying to see and please as many people as I could.  Jesus is probably up there right now laughing (lovingly laughing I hope) at my human foolishness, of course there is no possible way for me to accomplish every single tiny thing that I want to before leaving on my adventure known as spring break.  My personality has always been very Martha like always GOING, I think this morning God has pulled me to this passage to remind me to try and be more like Mary "who sat at the Lord's feet listening to what he said" and who rests to enjoy God's amazing presence.  I need to remember that "only one thing is needed.  Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." (Luke 10:38-42)

Lord help me rest and enjoy Your presence!! Let me be like Mary please oh please!!