The Future

The future is a vast, unknown place where hope and dreams can be fulfilled or be changed completely.  The future is scary, yet exciting.  The future will soon become the present and then the past.  It is in this ever changing aspect of time that I find the most uncertainty, but along with that uncertainty I also find exciting moments of hope.  I have always struggled with the concept of future and what my life will look like a couple months or years from now.  Somedays I find it hard to concentrate on the present moments that God has given to me.  I tend to lose focus, gazing into the future while dreaming about what is to come.  This sense of being lost in the present has come to full force in the past few weeks.

A few weeks ago I got an amazing phone call.  I had applied for an internship to work at Saranac Village (a Young Life camp in the Adirondack Mountains) late fall.  After volunteering a month last August at Saranac, my heart was touched in ways I never dreamed possible.  I absolutely fell in love with the atmosphere that this particular Young Life camp offered.  The final week I was there, after a few great and insightful conversations, the wheel was set in motion for me to consider applying for an summer-long internship position.

After a lot of prayer about what this upcoming summer would look like and a lot of wondering where God really wanted me, I took that final step and started filling out the application.  Then it was out of my hands.

Almost two weeks ago as I was walking to class I got the call.  I was officially offered one of nineteen intern positions at Saranac and I was going to be one of the waterfront interns.

Honestly, I am still have moments when this does not seem like a reality, that I dreamt it all.  But, somehow, someway God has given me this amazing opportunity to serve Him, touching the lives of college and high school students this summer.  I feel so incredibly blessed to be doing what I love, working on the water all the while worshiping Christ and letting His light shine out from the work I do.  I could not have asked for a better way for my summer, and I am especially excited to see just what God is going to do in me and for me in this experience.

This is one of those things that I just want to get up and dance and celebrate everyday.  At the same time, thought, I am scared that I am looking towards the future too much.  I pray that I keep my head in the present, loving my amazing roommates and friends, just being present.  I can only hope that I keep my head on straight and fully enjoy the last few months of my Junior year of college.