I cannot fathom the fact that classes start again tomorrow. It seems as if summer flew past me without a second glance backwards. I am getting thrown back into the chaos of to-do lists, studying, time management, running - back into the chaos of real life.
It is terrifying going into this year realizing that I have no plans, no idea how I am going to use my major (or if I even want to continue it), and relying on God to be my only provider and my planner.
If I take one thing out of the past month of working and living completely in touch with God's power is the fact that God will provide. He knows the plans He has for me. He created me even before I existed and loves me unconditionally. He will never let me go or throw me into the unknown with no means of escape or a way to reach Him. His power is more mighty than any plan I can cook up for myself to become better. His will is stronger than any humanly desire I might have.
I can only pray to have Him be my one desire day in and day out. I am scared of the fact that I can so easily slip and fall back into the current I am so desperately fighting against. All my temptations surround me each and every day yet, when I rely on Him to give me strength and to fight for me, I can stay afloat.
I am so thankful to be living in an amazing community of 8 other girls who are all amazing women of God. I am so blessed to be in such a positive place full of people who will hold me accountable. I cannot wait to see how God works in us and in our time together. The group of us is going to be a lot stronger than any one of us separated and all of us are going to grow together in His love.
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